failure pt. 2

“There is no such thing as failure, only results” – Tony Robbins

If you want a different result, change your activities. We all know there is a cause and effect in everything we do, yet it can sometimes be so difficult to get out of the quicksand that we sometimes step into. I keep thinking that somehow as I get older I am also getting wiser, but I find myself falling into the same traps over and over again if I am not careful. I fall into the trap of laziness, and then wonder why my weight creeps up. I fall into the trap of self criticism and wonder why I feel so low. I fall into the trap of complacency and then wake up and see I need to step it up.

I can’t count how many times I have taken control of my eating and exercise, and stepped into the zone of personal improvement. But invariably over and over again, no matter how committed I am at the time, I end up faltering and falling off the wagon. I used to be very hard on myself when I would swing to the right, but what I can see now is that there is a pattern, a swing of the pendulum, a zag for every zig.

Right now I am in a very zig place, I am eating for fuel and pleasure, not boredom and variety. I am intentionally planning out my week to include activities that I enjoy that push my body. I am not going to call it exercise, because that word is right up there with diet for me. They are the poison words that have a beginning and and end. They are the words that define activities that I no longer want to do. I am tired of learning the same lesson over and over again. I am tired of learning that no matter how much you diet, the real test is maintaining. I am tired of learning that if you don’t work your body, your body will stop working for you.

What am I doing differently this time to make it the last time I have to learn these lessons? For one I am writing about it here, and am expecting to be held accountable for my words. I have made a list of my secrets to fulfillment-the things that get me in the zone, and they are in a prominent place to remind me daily of the things I am doing that have me in my happy place:

Feed my mind
Fuel and push my body
Practice gratitude
Pay it forward